Little Moments

There are moments in life that I wish I could capture and relive every single day. I don't want just the memory. I want the physical touches, the smells, the emotions. Like right now in this moment of feeling my sweet baby cuddled in my arms, sleeping on my chest. These simple and beautiful moments make every single hard moment worth it.

For some reason this week has been really difficult physically and emotionally. Camden is getting both of his top teeth in as well as throwing screaming tantrums with being sick today on top of it all. This has made for a sleep deprived and, unfortunately, cranky mommy. I've been at a loss at what to do and have found myself in tears regretting not cuddling with him more or getting too angry with him during his fits. I've found myself comparing myself to my friends who all seem to have this mommy super power that I seemed to be lacking this week. So I threw myself a bad mommy pity party and let it affect me. 

I finally closed my eyes and thought about the past week. I realized how fast time was really going. Soon Camden wouldn't be a baby anymore. Soon he'll be independent and not needing me as much. Before I know it he'll be graduating high school, heading out on his mission, or getting married. I don't like the feeling of time escaping so quickly.

Then I thought about the positives. That sweet smile first thing in the morning. Hearing his voice calling for "mama" whenever I'm not in sight. The crying that stops instantly after I pick him up. The moments of sharing food and watching his face light up. To him, I'm perfect. He's too little to see my flaws. All he sees is his mother, whom he loves more than anything in the world. To him all that matters is that I'm there.

These thoughts make my heart swell with love and gratitude for this little boy. I'm the mother that was chosen for him. I have what it takes and what he needs. Sometimes reminders are needed to be remember the little moments that make life what it is. Life is wonderful.