Lately, Matt and I have been making a budget for our future together and it's been going great! The only stumbling block has been my tuition for school. Matt's is already covered so all we lack is mine, but tuition+books & supplies+out of state fees=$$$$. How in the world could I ever afford this? I turned in a scholarship application to the college with a huge feeling of peace that we would be okay, but that ever persistent little nag keeps coming back. What if it all doesn't come through like you're expecting? Well, I have an answer to that. It's called prayer.
Many prayers have been given that I might receive some form of financial aid for school. And if I don't receive enough, what is the answer then? Do I need to work more and go to school less? Do a monthly plan through the school? What does He want me to do? After a couple weeks of not feeling or receiving any distinct impression, I hit my knees once again. I needed peace. I needed answers. But this prayer was different. Instead of asking if I could get some form of assistance I turned it on me. I promised that no matter how hard it was I was willing to do it if I had His help to accomplish it. My answer came four days later.
Matt called me after his track meet and said his coach had talked to him. She said that if I would run cross country for her next fall she would give me a scholarship. Now, I was super ecstatic and said yes. I mean, it was my answer and I knew that! But then the excitement slowly wore off. Cross country? Are you serious? I've never ran that in my life. I tell people how grateful I am for a husband who takes care of himself, but also how crazy I think he is for running as much as he does. Is this some sort of karma? After a few minutes of panic that familiar feeling came back and the words "peace be unto Thy soul".
So now training has started. It's definitely not as easy as I thought it would be, but it's definitely a plus I was in shape before I started this. After only three days of running my time is going down. It's all a mental game. Your mind says, "No. No more. We're done. We can't go any farther." Your body is quite the opposite. I can run way farther and longer than I ever thought I could. It'll be a slow process, but I'm hoping by June I can be up to three miles (:
I am just so grateful I have my life in order and I'm living in a way that I know my Father in Heaven wants me to. If I wasn't doing the things I'm suppose to be doing, I don't think I would have had this tiny miracle I have. Because of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the ennabling power it brings to each of us is why I'm able to do this. I know I can do this! I am so excited for this challenge and for something to do every day with my wonderful husband to be (:
Brianna- I am so happy for you! You sound so incredibly happy and in love. It seems like things are working out and all falling in to order as they should be. How awesome it is to get this scholarship when you've never run xc before!! So exciting! I know you can do it :)
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